Yours truly for ever,
Monica suffers from chronic neuropathic pain. Every second of her life is spent in agony, and she is coping with it the best she can. However, there are whole years of her life which are a blur to her.
But when she finds what appears to be her own suicide note, Monica begins to question everything. She has no memory of writing it - so who did? And if someone tried to kill her once, what's to say they won't try again . . .
This book features a very brave lady Monica Woods, and her life of struggling with pain. Constant Pain, agony beyond anyone’s belief.
Following an accident she suffered years ago that has left her with Chronic neuropathic pain.
Good days and bad days, she doesn’t really have a choice but to try and get through it the best she can, and sometimes that means being stuck lay on the floor in agony for hours on end.
I think this is one of those books, that most people would find hard to understand how anyone can be in that sort of pain, how any human being can suffer like she does, it’s not right.
But suffer is exactly what she does, and having a life long illness that causes me a great deal of pain I could really relate to her, I could almost be her, her medication she takes is pretty much what I have to take, to try and function on a daily basis, to try stop your muscles spasming and to try and keep the pain at a minimum. To try and keep going enough to you don’t stiffen up, but not over doing it that you pay for it for days after. I really felt like I’d been dragged into this book and went on a journey with Monica.
Monica in my book, is an amazing lady. Her husband Dominic works in advertising, trying to understand her illness, and trying to work full time to support them both. He’s at the brunt end of a lot of Monica’s frustrations., They say you take it out on the ones closest to you.
Monica is horrified when she finds a suicide note, one that she has written years early, she knows she wrote it as its in her hand writing. And as most of her drugs cause a lot of memory loss, she doesn’t remember it at all.
Her husband just shrugs it off, with an answer of you were in a very dark place back then. But it has unnerved Monica. Is there more to it that she thinks?
Bit by bit Monica starts to feel that something is not quite right, but as she’s been so poorly, she can’t figure a lot of it out. But she’s certainly to try to, and bit by bit she manages to piece together the last few years.
There are some great twists in this book, that gives it the edge, and keeps you thinking and wondering where things will be going next. You just have to keep going because you want to know. And that (along with being in pain) is what kept me up a full night reading this book. It’s a long time since I’ve done a book in one sitting. I really didn’t see where this was going, and I think the twist was just first class.
I have to say the researching and the knowledge into the descriptions of the pain, and the drugs and side effects etc, is just spot on.
I would recommend this book to Anyone that likes a bloody good read.